ruining Lyrics

Another weekend

With a reason

To party but I never

Found it appealing

Watching drinking

While I'm sinking

Tryna find the perfect moment to go

It's making small talk

In a headlock

Cuz my personality is radioactive

I'm a recluse

Letting it loose

For maybe the last time, maybe the last time

I'm getting too old

To keep pouring out red solo cups

I'll stay in control

So I'm not solo holding my hair up

I need a friend

But I don't have shit to give

I'm in my head

It's counterintuitive

I'll make excuses

Like I do it's who I am

Just ruining

I'm walking backwards

It's a hazard

I'm picking up the pace

And nobody sees me

Wearing glitter

God my ribs hurt

From laughing at myself

Swearing that it helps

I'm getting too old

To keep pouring out red solo cups

I'll stay in control

So I'm not solo holding my hair up

I need a friend

But I don't have shit to give

I'm in my head

It's counterintuitive

I'll make excuses

Like I do it's who I am

Just ruining

I'm back again

Like some kind of idiot

I'll disappoint

Then act like I'm new at it

I'll make excuses

Like I do it's who I am

Just ruining

I'm getting too old

I'll stay in control

I'm getting too old

I'm ready to go

Don't wanna rock the boat

I'll sink the ship

Be your anchor but the bad kind

And I lost hope

For relationships

At least loneliness is all mine

If I'm up late cause I can't sleep

You're sleeping soundly somewhere

If I'm the girl of your dreams

You're probably having a nightmare

I need a friend

But I don't have shit to give

I'm in my head

It's counterintuitive

I'll make excuses

Like I do it's who I am

Just ruining

I'm back again

Like some kind of idiot

I'll disappoint

Then act like I'm new at it

I'll make excuses

Like I do it's who I am

Just ruining

If I'm up late cause I can't sleep

You're sleeping soundly somewhere

If I'm the girl of your dreams

You're probably having a nightmare