NEW BEGINNINGS ft. Oza Music Lyrics

Yeah, this my, this my, this my

So, so many dark nights

Wow, so many dark nights

(Thank you for being here tonight)

So many dark nights

Begging for forgiveness

Cause my sin was sickening and worsening

Wondering when it'll stop hindering my worshipping

Lurking temptations

Nonstop thoughts are wandering off into an exodus

Searching for where the exit is

Dreams of copping necklaces and Lexuses

But I'm stuck on where my soul is

Felt like I lost it back in 06 or 16

Damaging my spleen

All sorts of things, open doors to think

I should've thought this through

I should've repented then too

I'm still repenting now at 22

Should've wiped my tears, boo-hoo

Them demons lurking behind the pews

I'm barely awake, sipping on that brew

Hoping the pastor will say

In Jesus name your bondage is through

Your bondage is through

As he threw away his cup

I couldn't help but notice stuff like

Why'd it run dry

Is it cause of I

My family, my spies

My grandma really died

And I had a chance to prepare

But it still caught me by surprise

What am I on this earth for

Can't help but think I'm worth more

Than selling myself to the workforce

Or serving under leaders

Who value numbers over the word

Or gathering them plaques and awards

Get a couple stacks and a house

With no landlord

Get some exotic whips and a horse

You mean a Porsche

All the things I chased

Just left me feeling more void

Worthless toys

Recuerda me quien soy

Hija de Dios

I earned my spots like a koi

Cause clout chasing is like a disease

And I ain't recovered yet

So here I stand at the altar

Or lay in bed way after church service

Wondering if I'll die of cancer

Instead of praying

Maybe I'll nap first

I'm yearning for living water

I got an itch

No, I'm thirsty

Down highway 90 going 40

Heading to the Bucees, for an ICEE

Always running

Freezing my pain

Escaping my brain

I want change

Yet I hate it

Being famous is overrated

I'm too complacent

Codependent

Never listen

Possibly addicted

Am I Christian

I don't depict it

Unless I'm livid

My true colors, are not in my pigment

We are His children

One nation under God

Until they kill them

Kill them

When Jesus comes back, I know my fight is finished

I'm painting a vivid image

My prescription to cure my self inflicted sickness

Is to pray more

Even when my actions state different

I need to pray more

I got a mission

This my new beginning

This my new beginning

I remember thinking I was sinking in depression

Even Jesus couldn't pull me out of this

I was reading the Bible

Hearing some preachings

But I wasn't really listening

So I stayed in that hole for a while

Not realizing how

Through the storm

God still made a miracle come out