I'M STILL HERE? Lyrics

I know my worth

I'mma die young and berserk

Probably still lie when it's hurts

Probably still call on the first

Know that I been trying to make it work

But my heart's too fast so I'm irked

I'mma hit you back in a bit

I'mma let you know that I miss

All the little time that we spent

Never really thought that was it

Never really tried to be him

All the weight up on my shoulders

But I been getting older

I stick it in a folder

To read another day

Have another crisis

I'm never really like this

I promise that I'll fight this

I promise that I'll change

But I don't ever change

I just run away

I just put the issues

In a bottle 'til I rage

I just let my body

Disappear into the page

When I'm staring out the

Window I can only see the gray

Friends change on you

People fade away to lameness

You would not believe the shit I see

It's fucking shameless

Entertain a thought of theirs and they make you make nameless

You could not retaliate without making a plaintiff

Face it

Nothing's gonna matter when you're ancient

Crumbled up in dust scattered across a couple vases

Happens to the best of us so know that when they hate you

Nothing really matters so fuck over those who played you

God is not a concept that I want to entertain and

I would rather live in peace devoid of all the shame and

People gonna bitch at me for saying this in vain but

God is just a fucking fairy tale for your pain, so

Dance around the facts all you want life is meaningless

Got some people crying in the tub like Sean Alicia

Betas all around me soft and fake they drinking Stevia

Caffeinate and tell another story on my medium, I'm done

Go and put me in your top ten

Watch the mojo fade away like presupposition

When I put the competition in submission

For not fucking with the vision no this isn't

Simple disapproving digits that contingency

You place upon on my vicious sentence

I'm a blizzard dripping out the cup these bitches

Ain't a runner up my business isn't slipping

I don't need to listen winning by attrition

This is my position you ain't even inching

Trigger finger itchin' when I hear 'em bitching

Time will keep on ticking if you see this dick

You know where you can stick it you would think I'm finished

I will not relinquish any type of penance I'm a fucking menace

Need a paramedic and biochemist just to keep this track alive

Another second, who you're think you're stepping to?

You saw the record title, knew it's genocidal Spotify to Tidal

I'm a different idol you have been invited to a new asylum and my

New recital dying on arrival welcome to the bridal shower of the stifled

I'm a quarter Eiffel tower half a loaded rifle

Glutamate deprival, serotonin idle

I've been dormant for a fucking minute think that it's time that I drop all the files

It's over

I'm still here?

I know my worth

I'mma die young and berserk

Probably still lie when it's hurts

Probably still call on the first

Know that I been trying to make it work

But my heart's too fast so I'm irked

I'mma hit you back in a bit

I'mma let you know that I miss

All the little time that we spent

Never really thought that was it

Never really tried to be him

But I'm him