i crawled from the womb for this Lyrics

If sleep is the cousin of death

Would you wake me before my last breath

I'll cradle the silence inside

A flame burning out like a light

So I'll dance among the stars to find you

A map carved in your arms to hide you

Waste away in haunted dreams

Your memories are buried deep inside

I find it hard to find the purpose in all of this

A bitter life fading away and no I won't be missed

With every day my soul is drained of all its innocence

A waste a space the void replaced with all my abhorrence

I never learn i never figured out the rules

So watch me burn, a consequence saved for the fool

When every gift that I'm handed contorts itself to a curse

I'm left consumed and regretting the very day of my birth

Am I just wasting time

Or am I wasted life

Wish I could touch the sky

And leave it all behind

Rotten I'm dying inside

I've suffered

Behind a smile I hide

I've lost the will to go on another day

So like the rain I'll fade away

Severing my ties like the veins in my wrist

Preparing my goodbyes and eternal silence

No explanation why for a soul that's dismissed

Just the scribblings and lies of a broken nihilist

Bury me

Six feet deep

And I'll waste away

I'm my eternal sleep

I crawled from the womb for this

Crippling depression self loathing self obsession