x - rays gave me cancer so now I'm sad Lyrics

X-rays gave me cancer

So now I'm sad

Forever is the sweetest

Con to be had

Radiation poison

Seeping to my bones

Scared of ever knowing

and being alone

Knowing it won't happen

Hurts my heart

Pounding on my door

What even have I got?

For better or worse

I'll shut my mouth

I made a mistake

And now the secrets out

These scars I have on me

Are burning my heart

For someone like you

How do I restart?

Feelings are complicated

Of how I see you

On one hand you're my best friend

And the other wants you (FUCK!)

It all happened

So fucking fast

We spent a week together

And now I'm unsurpassed

So, x-rays gave me cancer

and that made me sad

The worst part is the waiting

For patience I don't have

I'm going, through shit

Another, crisis

Who even, am I?

Another sexuality, to explore this time

"Tonight, after you were gone, I thought a lot about you and how you've been treating me. Why do I love you? And then, I felt everything in me just let go of everything I was holding onto so tightly and it hit me that I don't have an intellectual, I don't need one. I trust myself and I trust my feelings. I'm not gonna try to be anything other than who I am anymore."

First guy

In my life

Will I ever forget it?

Or will the cycle never end!?

X-rays gave me cancer

So now I'm sad

I gave it a chance

Now I feel fucking bad

X-rays gave me cancer

So now I'm sad

By x-rays I mean your love

That I'll never have

X-rays gave me cancer

So now I'm sad

What is up with me?

Falling in love again

X-rays gave me cancer

So now I'm sad

I'm scared I will never again

Feel the same for, you