i'm not okay and that's okay Lyrics

Now this ain't crying out for help

I just do this for myself cuz I don't need nobody else

As I sit, I really ponder on my mental health

I might be sick, but these feelings I ain't never really felt

I've always dealt, with everything alone always on my own

I was the guy that friends would come to when knew they lost control

Now here I am, in my room, writing lyrics in my phone

I'm spiraling down a hole just to put it in a song

Lack of motivation, lack of sleep, I lack a home

I guess I lost myself when I just wanted to be known

It's hard to express your feelings with your emotions dead and gone

Your just emptying a bank account that already withdrawn

I give it all I got but I don't have too much to give

I can barely raise myself how the fuck I raise a kid

Sometimes I think about scoob and all the things he could have did

He lived until he died and I've been dying just to live

I don't want nobody else feeling like me

Always did what I want at was cost?

Now everything I've done it haunts me

Everyone seems fine and I'm lost

But this song gon' help me through it

I pray this song gon' help me through it

So when I'm down and I think that I just blew it

I get up and I just do it

Sometimes I think about life, sometimes I think about pain

Wonder if I had another shot I do it the same

Idk the more you know the more you're willing to change

Would I keep the ignorance or would it keep me insane

I'm addicted to thrills, I'm addicted to fame

I'm addicted to the drugs that course thru all of my veins

Look my mother in her eyes and felt an instance of shame

It seems like every single night I play a dangerous game

It's a gamble I'm in shambles man who thought I'd be me, I just keep on running away I'll numb this shit till it leave

Fixing other people tell them all to believe

Never worry about myself until they worried about me

Now I gotta take a seat, maybe best to alive

You see Depression is a sickness better yet a disease

Who's there for me? I'm scared of me. Embarrassing, therapy

I'm not okay and that's okay, open up, let me see

I don't want nobody else feeling like me

Always did what I want at was cost?

Now everything I've done it haunts me

Everyone seems fine and I'm lost

But this song gon' help me through it

I pray this song gon' help me through it

So when I'm down and I think that I just blew it

I get up and I just do it

(Skit)