I Don't Want To Die Lyrics

I got these demons in my head

Replaying everything I said

Was it worth it, the tears I shed

To find myself alone again

Every time I put the blade to my wrist I can't do it

I can't pull the trigger if it meant I wouldn't feel it

Called so many names

Belittled in such ways

I can't explain how fragile I feel

With my heart again

For the taking, but no one is taking

Die, runs in my head but I know I can't make it

I got people to stay for

Dreams I can't make or

Nightmares to wake sore

My heart, let it break more

Days go by where I waste my time

What can I do in this life

I can't do it anymore, I-I'm so sorry

Please don't hate me after this

I-I tried, I swear I tried so hard

I just I can't, I can't do it anymore

Just know that I love you so so much

So many notes that I threw away

Only you could read all the pain

Wrote a will to be cremated

I just wanna be sedated

Thought of ways to get outta here

Only tried three times in a year

No one was there at my worst

Seeing the difference, it hurts

Demons crawl in my brain

My actions I make in vain

I only talk to the rain

Because it's hard to explain

Used to being alone

I stay awake on my phone

I can't sleep to the tone

I feel so unknown

Feelings I keep in private

Slowly losing this riot

Emotions look like a giant

Overwhelmed, I go silent

It's hard to say goodbye

Gone, I'm cold and dry

I don't want to die

I'm sorry I don't feel alive