what are you so afraid of Lyrics

'Cause I'm afraid

I'm afraid

I'll die young

I'm afraid

I'm afraid

I'll die young

What are you so afraid of

Is it love or wasting time?

I've tried finding loving for eighteen years

And no luck that I don't feel the spark when I look in their eyes

Sadly

It's been getting tiring that I try to bring myself to try

But I've never fell in love with anyone and I can't deny

Whenever ever it gets rough I brush it off

Pure ignorance how are you supposed to grow when you don't climb

It's like talking to happiness and sadness

Now where the sorrow goes

Unless someone dies then sorrow will come back

Praying to the heavens above hoping you were even enough

Home is where you feelings roam

While your brothers feelings are stuck in stone

Abused and bruised from parents that were stone cold

Living to expectations from a childhood that was robbed

My father never talked a lot

He just took a walk around the block

'Til all his anger took a hold of him and found ways to let it rot

And then he'd hit my mother that took the punches, but she never fought

But always cried in those long ride nights

While young me isn't even born yet and he was just a little snot

My brothers are the ones that had to fight for the slot

Hot shot, no stop

When the ego takes a hold of the odds

'Til one day she said, "I'm leaving, and I'll take the kids"

So she did then would come back on repeat

Tried to stand on her own two feet

Moving from street to street

Always going left and never find the right street

He would always cheat

The go out of his way to get drunk and beat her

My brothers would try to protect her

And he'd bash them on their head

And they wonder if they ever deserved this

How could you hurt a little kid?

Do you know what we all did to try to undo it?

So much drugs and alcohol can't refuse it

For all of our pain and all your excuses

They were just kids but they weren't clueless

To realize that someone who loves you wouldn't do this

All of our past, we tried to erase it

Why must we embrace it

But now we see, would we even change it?

Might share a face and share a last name, but

We are not the same

'Cause now I'm scared that everyone I love will leave me

God

I have my father's eyes

But my mothers when I cry

I can run

But I can't hide

From my family line