When I'm Alone Lyrics

How do we hurt yet just act okay

All life does is throw pain our way

We fight to survive how could they just say

Smile and save your tears for another day

There's no way to erase my wrongs

The pain plays the strings while I sing these songs

Lies are the secrets to staying strong

It means you were used to it all along

And I hate that my heart breaks when I realize

That I won't escape these chains

Behind the smiles and laughs is the real truth

I've been crying alone in vain

Travel back in time to the times when life felt okay

Now all I do is search for a reason to be hurt

I wish I understood myself

Cuz all I do is cry for help

I can't breathe I can't sleep

When will the pain set me free

Will there ever be an end

To this suffering and regret

I hope it leaves I hope it bleeds

But it proceeds to make me see

That when I'm alone

Pain makes me feel at home

Staring at the stars trying to find my truth

Hoping that they'll give me the slightest clue

About why my dreams never have come true

The guilt never leaves once its taken you

When will we solve the mystery

Of why life is a broken reality

Close your eyes and try to believe

You can fight your demons even when you're weak

And I hate that my heart breaks when I realize

That I won't escape these chains

Behind the smiles and laughs is the real truth

I've been crying alone in vain

Travel back in time to the times when life felt okay

Now all I do is search for a reason to be hurt

I wish I understood myself

Cuz all I do is cry for help

I can't breathe I can't sleep

When will the pain set me free

Will there ever be an end

To this suffering and regret

I hope it leaves I hope it bleeds

But it proceeds to make me see

That when I'm alone

Pain makes me feel at home

I'm underwater and I'm struggling to see the light

It's cold and dark and I don't think I'm gonna win this fight

I'm standing here with the utmost fear hoping sanity is in sight

Maybe if I wait won't be too late and my truth will feel right

I wish I understood myself

Cuz all I do is cry for help

I can't breathe I can't sleep

When will the pain set me free

Will there ever be an end

To this suffering and regret

I hope it leaves I hope it bleeds

But it proceeds to make me see

That when I'm alone

Pain makes me feel at home