Pain In A Melody Lyrics

I don't let no one get next to me

I done got big on protecting me

Always giving my shoulder to lean on

To people who wouldn't move they neck for me

All of them times they neglected

All of that damage embedded me

So I use the music for therapy

I put my pain in a melody

I don't let no one get next to me

I done got big on protecting me

Too many issues with trust

Attachments with people be scaring me

I just keep lookin ahead me

I'm on a quest for a better me

So I use the music for therapy

I put my pain in a melody

I'm out of the way

I be minding my business

I stay to myself

And my dealings been slimmin'

I don't wanna talk about none of my feelings

You won't understand because nobody get it

They gone say that I changed

They gon say that I'm different

I cut they ass off

When they lane started switching

I'm focused on me and I ain't feelin' guilty

I live in this life and you just come and visit

Don't tell me I'm tweeking

Don't tell me I'm tripping

You don't know how hard in that mud I was digging

I'm thankful for mama Lord's knows that I love her

I started sinking she came with a shovel

My family so big and I don't even know em

Named after my daddy

He didn't even want me

Solid to friends with 10 toes to the gravel

Just to find out that they loyalty fragile

Time in my life is no longer a factor

Yo words betta match every bit of yo actions

I'm puzzled how people think Imma forgive em

Gave pieces of me and it fucked up the picture

I distance in peace and respect the revealing

Won't harbor no anger I'm working on healing

I hope that He hear me the nights that Im kneeling

Cause all that I see is the paint on the ceiling I

I don't let no one get next to me

I done got big on protecting me

Always giving my shoulder to lean on

To people who wouldn't move they necks for me

All of them times they neglected

All of that damage embedded me

So I use the music for therapy

I put my pain in a melody

I don't let no one get next to me

I done got big on protecting me

Too many issues with trust

Attachments with people be scaring me

I just keep lookin' ahead me

I'm on a quest for a better me

So I use the music for therapy

I put my pain in a melody

All of these scars

I'm tryna cleanse em

I tend to soak when I get in my feelings

Emotions like drugs

My heart get to binging

Takin' the pain like it was a prescription

So many people then did me wrong

But we not gone highlight them in this song

When them true colors show I just switch the tone

And if we not in sync then you gotta gone

Yeah that pun was intended

I'm tired of twisting and bending for everyone missing

I need someone present

I Iook in the mirror

Them absents and tardies got fuckin ridiculous

People do what you allow them

I won't negotiate not on my value

My Circle went semi cause it got too curvy

Aint budging on nothing my boundaries sturdy

I been there for everybody but me

They been draining my cup and I couldn't take a drink

I'm replenished I'm handling business

Time with myself that I know I been missing

I been tryna forget it

I got shirts that's still drippin' from tears I've befriended

Why be fake to the realest

Man bullshit presented was heavily scented I

I don't let no one get next to me

I done got big on protecting me

Always giving my shoulder to lean on

To people who wouldn't move they neck for me

All of them times they neglected

All of that damage embedded me

So I use the music for therapy

I put my pain in a melody

I don't let no one get next to me

I done got big on protecting me

Too many issues with trust

Attachments with people be scaring me

I just keep lookin ahead me

I'm on a quest for a better me

So I use the music for therapy

I put my pain in a melody