(The Illusion Of) HEALING Lyrics

I been in my feelings

Stuck inside my head tryna give these words some meaning

But now it's not making sense

And help ain't that appealing

So I'll stay in my bed

'Til life is on the up again

And I know that shit gets rough sometimes

But it's getting harder to get back up

Conflicting pieces of my mind

My brain and my heart always wanna scrap bout

Who I fuck and who I love

And if I'm ever doing enough

You say you never see it cause I'm good with the bluff

But I ask if my mask ever cracks, could ya

Tell me that you love me

Even if you don't mean it

Cause right now I'm fiening, I'm fiening for it

I crave that validation

Chasing it for no reason

The illusion of healing is all that I want

So gimme that "It'll be okay"

Gimme that "It'll be okay"

Gimme that "It'll be okay"

Keep telling me what I wanna hear

"It'll be okay"

Gimme that "Everything's okay"

Gimme that "You gon be okay"

Truth is, life can be ruthless

I'm in love with drugs but the drugs make me stupid

Fuck it, I'm young, I got time to go dumb

But the blunt got me numb

I been making excuses to check up on my mental

Lately I been wilin out

Every time my windows down, hella smoke be filin out

I think I should dial it back

But I don't feel like trying now

So ain't nothing to do but ride it out

Tell me that you love me

Even if you don't mean it

Cause right now I'm fiening, I'm fiening for it

I crave that validation

Chasing it for no reason

The illusion of healing is all that I want

Tell me that you love me

Even if you don't mean it

Cause right now I'm fiening, I'm fiening for it

I crave that validation

Chasing it for no reason

The illusion of healing is all that I want

So gimme that "It'll be okay"

Gimme that "It'll be okay"

Gimme that "It'll be okay"

Keep telling me what I wanna hear

"It'll be okay"

Gimme that "Everything's okay"

Gimme that "You gon be okay"

I'm fishing to get that "it'll be okay"

Gimme that "It'll be okay"

Gimme that "It'll be okay"

Keep telling me what I wanna hear

"It'll be okay"

Gimme that "Everything's okay"

Gimme that "You gon be okay"

Yeah yeah,

Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh

Uh-huh

How do you cope? What's ya mechanism?

What do you smoke? Who you been

How do you cope?

What's ya mechanism?

What do you do to side-step that pessimism?

What do you smoke?

Who you been messing with, bruh?

A functional addict? Bro, I'm the definition

I know that, if push comes to shove

I'm turning to a spark from a chick to the bud

Whether it's a strong feeling or a lack thereof

In some way, most this shit's about