The Love Poem Of Tess J. Siegel Lyrics

So it's like we're all on this ocean of life

And we're all in these little boats

And everybody's in their boat on the ocean of life

And some try to rescue those who don't have boats

And they're like treading water and they pull them up into the boat

But then they don't know how to have two people in there

And they wind up tearing each other apart

Then there's other people who just look at their phones and their boat

And they don't pay attention to the water

But they're just drifting along in their boat looking at their phones

And then there's other people who are in their boats looking at those treading water

And they say to them, you need to make your own boat

Because you're filling up this ocean with boatless people

And then there's other people who have their own boats with really nice stereos in them

And they say, well, we need to make a government

That can take care of the people treading water

Because they can't take care of themselves

Because they've been repressed and held down for centuries

No one cares what I have to say about the situation

Absolutely no one

I write love poems instead of suicide notes

I remind myself that I am capable of feeling more than hatred

I don't give death a voice today

I don't give sadness the breath it needs to speak

Write a poem about your eyes so that I won't cry

Sometimes distraction is better than action

I write a love poem instead of a list of things that can kill me

I don't think about the knives or the cars or the water

I don't think about the fucking water

I don't think about becoming a ship lost at sea

I don't think about drowning

I don't think about the taste of the bath water in my mouth

I don't think about it filling up my lungs and stealing my breath

If anything's going to take my breath away, I want it to be your smile

I don't care about how stupid that sounds

Because instead of my own obituary, I write about you or her or him

I try to remember what the good feels like

I write poems filled with gooey words and I let them stick to me

I let all this fluffy illusion keep me warm until I am cold no longer

I write love poems even on the days my grief forms puddles at my feet

Like it's the only thing I can step into

Like it's the only thing I can find my reflection in

I even wrote a love poem when you left me

Because I will always choose my heart breaking

Over my heart not beating over me not existing

I think I'd rather feel everything than nothing at all

This is not the easy choice because on too many days I am simply living

Despite myself, I never thought it would be this hard just to be alive

So I have to give myself something to live for

Maybe that's cliche, but I think so far it's been working

See, I think most people on this earth deserve a love poem

Deserve to be reminded of what the good feels like

I think most people never get their love poems

so I'll write them each one a survival