Product Of Pain Lyrics

I am a product of pain

I'm not ready to die

So I push past the pain

I am the abortion gone wrong

I was pushed through pain

At 31….

my father looked me in my eyes and told me

the reason why he wasn't around

he told my mother not to have me

Now you Tell me that aint pain

It wasnt like he had to push

But I pushed through

I was bulletproof

Because my brother wasn't

No Luke Cage in him

But will always be superhero to me

At 25

He couldn't survive the pain of a bullet

Casket heavy with sorrow

Future as hopeful as a eulogy

My journal now

each page a tombstone

Full- of life sentences

Way too many question marks

Not enough happy endings

I am a product of pain

Pain is what you read about

What we write for

The reason we get drunk and high on

What we live and die with

Never seek but Always hide from

Like pain don't have a key to the crib

Like fear don't make deliveries

Like adversity ain't our neighbor

Like struggle don't rent across the street

Like depression ain't the landlord

Like racism don't own the block

When you're stuck between rock and rock all you know is hard place

I am a product of pain

Grew up in a cold world

And the furnace didn't work

Ain't no metaphor in that

We don't talk about this icebox where our hearts used to be

We ain't talkin bout how black men have become our own enemy

How we still have to find the energy to fight the rest of the world when our mirror is enough

Alls my life I had to.....push

But pain been pushin back

Like a bully

And he pick on my mama too

But Mama say Push

Pray Until Something Happens

Sometimes you just gotta let the lord deal with it

But you can't bring fist to faith fight

I am a product of pain

But I got babies

And my babies that need to know healing is possible

That change gon come when you look pain in the face

That our reality may be worse than their nightmares

But when you push past pain

It teaches struggle ain't so bad after all

Pain is what gives us purpose

It helps you realize what what your worth

It helps understanding that pain is a lot different than what hurt is

So you Keep fighting

Keep dreaming

Keep pushin

Don't you ever stop pushin

Even when it hurts

Don't you ever stop pushin

I am A Product Of pain

And I ain't gon never stop pushin