masochist (remix) Lyrics

You damaged me damn I wish I didn't like this

Only thing I think about is when will my life end

Demons inside of me I wish I could fight them

Demons inside of me but they don't fight fair

People try to talk to me like I'm supposed to care

Why should I give a fuck when I'm in need nobody's there

I don't talk about how I'm feeling I don't like to share

Suicides an easy way out I need to grow a pair

Suicide is selfish well bitch I'm helpless

Don't care if it's selfish nobody's ever there

What were you expecting I'm tortured everyday

So when I get the courage I'll finally escape

My life is wretched I don't need a blessing

Have no confessions not going to heaven

Constantly I'm suffering hoping no one notice me

Nothings ever comforting now it's hard to go to sleep

I am full of misery I am living miserably

Full of anxiety all I feel is agony

When I kill myself don't think it'd be a tragedy

Hope that no one's mad at me my life was a catastrophe

What would you do if you were condemned to this torment

Put yourself in my shoes but you've never worn them

Put yourself in my shoes my soles worn out

Everything is my fault I feel the scorn now

Damn I really need to get you off my mental

Why do I still love you all the shit you put me through

Way things ended wasn't coincidental

I did shit too so I can't resent you

But what you did girl it was detrimental

The more you hurt me more I love you I am so pitiful

I love it more the more you hurt me like I was a masochist

But I'm not getting off to this relieve me of my consciousness

Put me in sarcophagus do your worst girl punish me I'll face the consequence

Of you thought the world now I think the fucking opposite

Loving you is punishment I said I was done with this

Still fell for you even though I know what come with it

Girl you left me wondering what did you benefit

Why was I condemned to this

I hate it when we fight love it when we're intimate

I want you by my side why'd you make it intricate