expiration date Lyrics

When suddenly sad songs aren't sad enough

And I don't feel enough for people to stay

An invisible hand curls around my neck

And it becomes impossible to take a breath

When it gets harder and harder to tell

Apart the nightmares and memories

It's three am and I don't want to sleep

In case I wake up and remember it was real

I wish I had an anaesthesia

That could put my feelings to sleep

Something that could stop the screams

That no one else can really hear

I just need a band aid

Big enough to fix my heart

When I've been spiralling out of control

And keep falling deeper all the fucking time

I sometimes feel nothing but emptiness hits twice as hard

As pain ever did

When it feels like I'm running out of time

Slowly getting closer and closer

To the expiration date

That someone stamped on my heart

I wish I had an anaesthesia

That could put my feelings to sleep

Something that could stop the screams

That no one else can really hear

I just need a band aid

Big enough to fix my heart]

A scream for help

In a soundproof room

The need to escape

With my hands tied up

A silent cry

But my eyes are dry

Intrusive thoughts

That bring back the gloom

A scream for help

In a soundproof room

The need to escape

With my hands tied up

A silent cry

But my eyes are dry

Intrusive thoughts

That bring back the gloom

I just need a band aid

Big enough to fix my heart

Why is it so easy to break me?

Just one word and you leave me shaking

If only I was a bit more self-assured

Enough to stop always feeling alone

Did I really think that I could make it?

I know I'm not strong, why am I pretending?

I got my hopes up and now they're in free fall

When I hit rock bottom it feels like home

I wish I had an anaesthesia

That could put my feelings to sleep

Something that could stop the screams

That no one else can really hear

I just need a band aid

Big enough to fix my heart

How can I ask for help

If I feel like I don't deserve to be saved?

How can you turn off your own mind?

Switch off your thoughts at least for a while?

How can you fight against your brain?