Hold Me Close Lyrics

Tell me how it feels

To live life without me

Is there light without me

Cause it's dark without you

All I see is clouds and

Everything is gray

Every time I wake

I just hate myself

And I try to take it

Day by day

But I can't seem to make it

Work at all

I try to work it off

But here lately

I don't wanna work at all

I just sit in this chair and stare at these walls

And I pray to God that they can learn to talk

Cause I'm so sick of having conversations up inside my mind

If I could take the time to figure out what went wrong

Go back rewind it

Maybe next time

I'll leave the skeletons hung inside the closet

Cause it seemed to me that I was causing problems

But if I keep 'em buried

I won't ever solve em

Will I ever find the

Strength to one day

Walk away from

All the pain

That I created

Don't tried to save me

You can't this time

I finally made the

Separation from the love you gave me

Was it fabricated

Tried to open up but that was frustrating

It's like you didn't care that I was suffocating

When I walked away you

When I walked away you didn't try to chase me

Am I wrong to blame you

It's okay to blame me

I'll take the pain

If that means you escape

So you can run away from

All the dreams

That we created

I hope you meet a man

And that he loves you well

So you ain't gotta fake it

Cause that's what I'm doing when I walk around

I'm faking strong

Cause they can't see me frown

So I just write it down

It's all inside the music

And if you ever listen

I hope you find amusement

That it's so confusing

Cause it's clear now what I've done to you and

What hurts the most is that

You weren't a muse

I had push myself

To be better for you

Guess I pushed myself right off the cliff though

You knew all my triggers

Like you read the cliff notes

So we can skip the series

We won't get a sequel

I guess damaged people really damage people

I can't blame you for my broke cerebral

The plan I had

I swear it wasn't evil

I had some issues I just couldn't see through

You had some problems you said you would work on

We just didn't work though

I guess love just fades slow

I guess feelings die quick

I had someone ask me

When they heard the new songs

Why I sound so bitter

I responded with

I gave someone my all

For them to only tell me they expected better

Now I'm lost inside with questions

Ruminating

If i'm lovabale

Then how come I hate me

And she afraid to date me

It's like I sabotage

Everything I love

So it can never save me

I guess I'd rather drown

I see the (son) sun

That's why I'm looking down

Happiness is exist

But don't hang around

You need space but I refuse to quit

My anxious attachment

Lit the wick

And blew it to pieces

I needed you

But yeah so did you

I'm so overbearing

You ain't in my shoes

So I just over share it

Or I shut my mouth and I adjust my bearings

I started music never had a parent

Couldn't run to them

They made me embarrassed

Everybody leaves

So much for caring