Mad Boy (Slowed) Lyrics

I try so hard

I try so hard

We went so far

We went so far

What do you want from me now

What do you wanna be now

Don't think I can go back to friends

So you better figure it out

What do you want from me now

What is you talking about

You were keeping me afloat

Why would you want me to drown

I'm what you n

Yea

I've been private

I've been silent

I've been rollin'

What's the mileage

Who to go with

Still decidin'

Hard to choose when you don't know who to side with

I've been puttin' so much pressure on myself

Because I feel like if I don't do it then who else

Tryin' to win it all with the blessings that I'm dealt

Worried about my efforts makin' records getting shelved

I ain't tryin' to do this when I'm 45

Sentimental yea I've always been that sort of guy

I know music will forever be immortalized

I had nightmares late at night that keep me mortified

Yea

Now I'm wide awake

Always on my mind even when I'm out of state

Trust me you don't need to worry if I'm bitin' if I'm not

Really all I'm tryin' to do is shoot is shoot my shot

I've been through a lot of

Long days

Long face

Small space

Wrong place

Wrong way

Yea

Full of shame

Numb the pain

Novocaine

Long days

Long face

Small space

Wrong place

Wrong way

Yea

Full of shame

Numb the pain

Novocaine

Now I've got to go and stunt on everyone who doubted me

Life is such a game tell me why they're always fouling me

Tryin' to get the bag man I'm sick of getting hourly

Sometimes it'd feel like my demons start to overpower me

When I'm on the ground I feel the devil tryin' to tower me

God I need a blessin' make it rain let it shower me

This is all a test

I can't fail it running cowardly

I can't let the jealousy and loneliness devour me

Slow start but I'm running fast

Things have changed baby you will never get a pass

Vaxxed up but I still pull up with a mask

Gave so much now they just take it all and they don't even ask

Like

You controllin' me

No I'm not in love

I just like it when you're holdin' me

I was crazy doin' anything for you to notice me

On my knees cryin' for your love like I'm Jodeci

Shorty broke my heart then got a bag going over seas

And a new man what a way of getting over me

In my darkest hour all I had was this poetry

Sometimes I forget

God was always there to oversee

Yea

Can't you tell

Lose myself or leave it all behind like Chappelle

Heart is on my sleeve but at least I wear it well

Steph is up in heaven tellin' me to give em hell

Give them hell

Long days

Long face

Small space

Wrong place

Wrong way

Yea

Full of shame

Numb the pain

Novocaine

Long days

Long face

Small space

Wrong place

Wrong way

Yea

Full of shame

Numb the pain

Novocaine