Depressive Episode, Pt. 2 Lyrics

Uhhh, hmm

One of the dudes I used to make music with here in the underground done made it

So why can't I be happy for him?

Oh yeah, we had a lil' fallout just before I started making records with Calvinmadeit

So fast forward he rose to fame

Now when he uses a subliminal in his records, I feel like he's referring to me

Serves me right, I've been really badmouthing him, see

I don't think it really matters who did who wrong at this point

Congratulations, I'm glad you made it my g

I root for you still, but that ship sailed, our friendship failed

It's 'bout time that I got shit off my chest, you got the last laugh, you've been hailed

I hope you're well, wish you the best

Well me? I been really depressed

Can't only be the heartbreak giving me stress

Oh yeah, and I ain't even talked about the heartbreak, yes

So see, back in freshman year, the first day of college I met this girl

Umm, we will call her T

T was outta my league

But it's sumn' about T that really intrigued me

And I fell in love with T

And I told my roommate Japhate, "G, I think I love this girl

Like I don't really know her that well…"

He said, "Let me stop you right there

It will end in tears!"

And after two years?

We've established two facts, yeah

T will never be my chick

And Japhate may be psychic

Guess I'll just stay in the friend zone, which got me here in this zone

She say she can't date me cause my motives are not merely to bone

Of course I'm rewording, but is sumn' along the lines of I'm a great lad

And I would make a great dad, a husband

So she wants me as her friend till the end

And she can't afford to break my heart and make me sad, she says she'll feel bad

Well guess what? You failed miserably

And this whole depressive episode is literally your doing

I'd rather tell you how I'm doing on your phone

But I don't think you'll understand, it'd be weird too, 'cause it's been long

You'd think I would have moved on by now

So I'll just stick to this song

And try to stay strong

But more on that later, I'm kinda faded

Just with everything else man, I'm lonely just like Akon

I used to think I'm a lone wolf, I'm just alone, ouf!

Prolly why every meltdown I have is on these updates on my phone too

'Cause when I want to tell it to somebody, nobody comes to mind

And that's no disrespect to those that do care, it's just really hard to find y'all

When I am really low

Well, you did say you'd be there only when I ain't need you to be there, so I guess I'll Never know

Try to stop me before part three

That's if I myself makes it to part three

Okay maybe I'm being dramatic, but I've had a constant pain in my chest area since January, I don't know kuti chii

And juggling all this with my school load as well

I see you got a smile on, haha, Sbwl

I don't know man, glass is half full, everything that follows now can only be heaven, 'Cause I've already been through hell