Getting There Lyrics

Do you remember the first time

You had these thoughts

Umm

What thoughts

You know what thoughts I mean

Thoughts of

Hopelessness

Self hatred

That loathing

All of it

I think pretty much always had those

Kind of feelings and thoughts

You know

Are you sure there wasn't

A point where it started

Like a

Turning point somewhere in your life

Certain person

Certain women

Ok no ummm

No it's pretty much been always there

So ummm

That means it pre-dates

Any sort of realtionship with a woman

That's if that's the case

Well you know that's kinda how

Trauma and mental health works

I guess

Come on

What other kind of relationship would cause

This much damage to a person's psyche

Shouldn't think about you all the time

When I'm the last one your mind

I know that's the same for me

It's been years since we spoke

You looking awfully tired these days

Has the world eased off it's pain

I know we both been through a lot

And I haven't been there for you

But that's just the way I was taught

By the one who has no fault

I know I seem insecure

Guess who didn't help with that

I'm acting all strange and petty

But I don't think that I'm ready

I'm still a bit traumatised

I can't look you in the eye

It's been awfully long yes

But I don't wanna go there

I been in denial you see

About the man who says he loves me

You never used to be like this

You used come all the time

But now I don't remember

All of the good times

I know it seems so selfish

That I can say this

When I have as much as effort

To akin as you have

I know it's stupid

I'm putting out my thoughts

Paper to word

But I haven't knocked at your door

And asked how you been

Last year we went through a lot

You lost a bit

And I lost it all

I never had the courage to ask

Cause I thought it would led to

Crashed through and you'd come to see

The failure I've come to be

I know that's not true at all

But I can't past all my flaws

I know seem tired these days

You been looking awfully sleepy now

Lay that weary head

And I'll see you when you're dead