Dripping Paint Lyrics

I don't see life through a blonde lense

Want much more than a white picket fence

Tired of losing people I call friends

Todays world just gives me suspense

Be around right people less nonsense

Till the end found one I can send

All my letters and flowers and then

Be worth all of the love we give in

Got something going on in my life ok I fucked that up

Got someone I want to talk to ok I fucked that up

Getting money working hard ok I fucked that up

Won't shut the fuck up ok I need better luck

I don't like the way that I act when I drink

I don't like what's rising deep down from my mind when I think

I don't like the vision behind my eyes when I blink

I don't like how this world constantly pushes me to the brink

Every time I go out say shit get fucked up

Never speak again get in a ball curl up

Every time I give you the chance I always fucking regret it

One day you'll know when I said I love you I meant it

And the clouds get in my way

Just like watching dripping paint

Waiting for heaven to open its gates

But where you paint it leaves a stain

The stain creates more pain

And where there's pain it always rains

Hold on closer to my name

It's not like I needed you anyways

Better faith brings on higher stakes

The stakes are ok

Because it's me in the makes

A bond that you can't separate

Our minds are being taped

To replay for the highest campaign

So your wanting to buy all these thing

These things that make you more of a slave

I've had way too many drinks and I'm sitting in town

Why am I feeling suicidal when my people aren't around

If you cry in the shower it's like you have no tears

Once the loneliness subsides your just left with your fears

I just torture myself in my mind

Cause even biting my tongue

Makes me cry

I'm weak

I guess I'm weak

I need work to keep my hands busy

I need play to keep my mind at ease

I'm starting to think my dreams might actually be right

My shadows are telling me don't go in at night

I've cried for every other person but none on my own behalf

Fighting and fussing just to not end up last

I've got things I've done I'm not proud of just like everybody else

Said things I'll think about later make me grow to hate myself

Shoulda coulda woulda but I leave things up to fait

When I realize I'm an idiot it's always too late

Too late

And the clouds get in my way

Just like watching dripping paint

Waiting for heaven to open its gates

But where you paint it leaves a stain

The stain creates more pain

And where there's pain it always rains

Hold on closer to my name

It's not like I needed you anyways

And the clouds get in my way

Just like watching dripping paint

Waiting for heaven to open its gates

But where you paint it leaves a stain

The stain creates more pain

And where there's pain it always rains

Hold on closer to my name

It's not like I needed you anyways