ice cream (so close) Lyrics

Self hate feeling heavier than lead

Everyday miracles

Happen that I neglect

Suicidal thoughts

Popping up inside my head

Had to train my brain

To think of other things instead

Loving life, finding friends

Close to overdose

Close to giving up

A closed door that would

Never open up

Thinking I was boarded shut

Wasn't worth being loved

But was worth beating up

These thoughts grew feet

Now there

Running around in my head

Telling me that

I'm better off leaving them dead

I could wallow in my weakest

Pr rise to defeat this

Instead of repeat this

Self doubt trying double down on me

Every weekend

But I found love for my life

And a reason for breathing

Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost

Reminds me

We are always so close

Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost

Reminds me

We are always so close

I want to die eating ice cream

I want to die filled with love

I want to live with the belief

That all this means something

Deep down

I know It does

I want to live feeling grateful

I want to live having fun

In a place with people who know me

Reminiscing on what was

I want to die eating ice cream

I wanna die by a lake

I don't wanna live forever

Maybe just 108

I accept that we're all gonna die

Somewhere

Somehow

In someway

But with that said

I don't wanna die today

I don't want to die today

I don't want to die today

I don't want to die today

I don't want to die today

Somewhere somehow some way

We all go

Somewhere somehow some way

We go

Somewhere somehow some way

We all go

Somewhere somehow some way

We go

Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost

Reminds me

We are always so close

Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost

Reminds me

We are always so close

I want to die eating ice cream

I want to die filled with love

I want to live with the belief

That all this means something

Deep down

I know It does

I want to live feeling grateful

I want to live having fun

In a place with people who know me

Reminiscing on what was

I want to die eating ice cream

I wanna die by a lake

I don't wanna live forever

Maybe just 108

I accept that we're all gonna die

Somewhere

Somehow

In someway

But with that said

I don't wanna die today

I don't want to die today

I don't want to die today

I don't want to die today

I don't want to die today

Somewhere somehow some way

We all go

Somewhere somehow some way

We go

Somewhere somehow some way

We all go

Somewhere somehow some way

We go

Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost

Reminds me

We are always so close

Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost

Reminds me

We are always so close