Introspection Lyrics

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator

This is my introspection

Looking back on life just tryna see if

The things that I've done with my life

My Fathers pleased with

Slow it down like it's a gear shift

Settle down so I can see his

Word that has been clear as night and day

Like we're in Genesis

I thought by now I'd be living all of my dreams

30 years old and married to the girl of my dreams

Figured my plan and God's plan were Siamese

But our plans

Never really joint at the seam

He told me go left

But I went right

Then I got when He said run hard

So, I sat tight

Told to me to wait

But I caught feelings and took flights

In hindsight I should've listened

Now I'm salty and looking for God's wisdom

See its odd I was questioning God

Told him his plan doesn't make sense

Though it had much better odds

Was tryna balance what I'm seeing

With the faith that I believe in

But faith comes by hearing

And hearing makes the odd things even

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator

And In my introspection

I'm just tryna see what's what

Being honest with myself

Like this is where I messed up

Dividing dreams from reality

Truth from dishonesty

Do I even worship God

Or how other people viewing me

Is well done my good and faithful servant important

Honoured by my creator cause my purpose I really served it

Do I want likes comments and shares

From people with different hair

Who don't care

If I'm a pauper or an heir

It's a hard life chasing your passion

Chasing your dreams

Feel confident cause you know these are God given dreams

Promise is a land of honey with milk flowing through the street

But the pasture to the promised land isn't always green

It's lined with fake in greats spaces

Doubting my calling had me standing in the wrong places

And I'm amazed

Thought this people were the real thing

But they were counterfeit

To counter it

The holy spirit showed me the real thing

When life was good and well

It was standby me

But when the boat started to shake

Everyone chose their peace

And in the valley of the shadow of death

I made the lions my pets

So what's next

Bring on the enemy feast

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator

Look, and in my introspection

I see I could be much better

Let go and let God

Cause he really holds it all together

My hindsight is perfect

Cause my vantage point has changed

So maybe

I should trust in the inventor of the game

I'm made in his image

So I look like him

Old me is in a casket

I used to look like him

Wanna see God when I look in the mirror

So I open the scriptures

And every sentence

Makes that image much clearer

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator

I'm tired of hiding my emotions

When I talk to my creator