Solitude ft. Phume Lyrics

I never knew that it could get this dark

Tryna avoid my shadow I'm afraid of the dark

I never knew

I never knew

I never knew that I Could feel so alone

Surrounded by these people but it's like I'm alone

I never knew

I never knew

I'm always searching for

Solitude

But I'm afraid of

Solitude

When I was young I used to hate thinking

Hated going inside my head

I feared of overthinking

I would pride myself on steady living by my instincts

Moving in one direction

Mind body and soul were in sync

But as I grew up, soon that balance was off

This brain freeze called adulting

Had me stumbling on

Crowded places felt like spaces where the light weren't on

Cause loneliness it never ends

It just goes on and on

Church folk keep saying "pray my brother be strong"

Like if I pray harder and faith stronger my problems will be gone

Reached my phone to call my family

They said we ain't got time

They said we all go through this son

We call this thing life

So dismissive

Will they miss me

I gotta find a way to make this pain end

But I'm afraid that if I do

Then my darkness wins

I'm always searching for

Solitude

But I'm afraid of

Solitude

Didn't you say your grace is sufficient for all my needs

Didn't you say that you'd never leave nor forsake me

Didn't you say you know the plans you have for me

So how come I don't see all these things that you see

Tell me

Why do I feel so alone?

I'm supposed to be this light on a hill top

But my light's been blown

Hey

Tell me, are you still in control?

Or maybe Judas got right cause when he hung

All his darkness was gone

Right now I can't trust you

Would you help me believe

Right now I can't hear you

I need you to speak

Too many voices in my head I cannot comprehend

Plus these pills by my bed look so inviting

Would you help me Jesus, I need you Jesus

Save me Jesus, please don't leave me Jesus

You are the potter I'm the clay would you make me a new

But what good is a new pot if the wine isn't too

Take me Lord into the Dark room

Where I can't see but I can feel you

Remove the things that are not you

Renew me Jesus in the Solitude

You still reign in my

Solitude

You bring peace to my

Solitude

You bring light to my

Solitude

No longer afraid of my

Solitude

Take me Lord into the Dark room

Where I can't see but I can feel you

Remove the things that are not you

Renew me Jesus in the Solitude

Take me Lord into the Dark room

Where I can't see but I can feel you

Remove the things that are not you

Renew me Jesus in the Solitude