I Am A Resource Lyrics

When I was 18

I said what

What wasn't for me

Because of

Because of your habits

I'm cautious

Now I'm more anxious

Sleepless

At 23 there's more that I can see

I have guilty blood on guilty hands

And darkened eyes, my restless mind

I don't always have the courage to say I love you

I get scared I'll fuck it up

If it's not you or me, then it must be me

And I was wrong when I was 18

It's different now at 23

A xanax and a shower, I'll feel better in an hour

I am a resource: a limited thing.

Sometimes, just a paycheck, a song at a Christmas party

But sometimes I'm more

I move with freedom and purpose

I mask my tired eyes

I talk to every stranger I meet

I see the light in every place

For a while I run away, for a while I run away

Again like a child

I love everyone I know, and everything is new

I love everyone I miss

I only miss what I remember

I remember what I want to

Because when I get back it's all waiting for me and the freedom and purpose are as far away as they ever were

It's always the truth this time