jester Lyrics

I think I wanna be the fool.

I'll blink and take the leap but I gotta keep my cool

Could sink into you like a cold pool

Will you say my name and know every weapon's essentially a tool

I'm into breaking every rule I spent making

just drink and let the sphinxes duel

Big fire eat small fire

Entirely inspired

Choir sings hymn in me

Until i ascend higher

Sins in my vicinity

I'm finna be

A figment of your fantasy if you let me

Signant ring to seal me in if I means you don't forget me

And I know that that wish is malignant but i think you get me

Praying hard you happy you met me

Cause right now it's my year of shame and bones

And fear of making homes

And tryna shake the feeling I'm alone

I wish you could've seen me on my throne

But it's realer if you don't

Gotta tell myself it's realer if you

Something sexy bout the feel of loosing hope

Or choosing to let go

This an ode to coping via throat

Transmuting through everything I wrote

Then broke

In a moments hesitation made a flame and let it choke

I wish you met me back when I was full

Best testament to my pull

I'm hesitant to look you in the skull

And let you flood my head with light i like it dull

Just enough to need a knife i need to like me

First and most of all

What's an idea worth

On what does it depend

And is it less at work

Than when it's baked for friends

Does someone always say I'm sorry just to make amends

And what's the rate for trading hate for a brand new lens

I was never good sticking to particular trends

Trauma showed me I can always see the zero in tens

When mama couldn't hold me told it to a couple of pens

Ink and thinking are my signature blend

Sink into the marijuana like it's fixing the men

And I'm a boy when I'm drinking your beer

But I'm a man when I'm shrinking in fear

I'm a hand shaking wiping a tear

Haven't had a good point in a year

Hit the joint like it's making me queer

On another level

Mother whispers you're the devil

Then again a god let me hear

Guess the message was clear

I am cursed and I am blessed in a different ear

I am blessed and I am cursed in a different ear