instead Lyrics

You wished me happy birthday

And with that smile on your face, we just got to flirting

The sprinkle in your eyes contained about a thousand words

Glitter glistening from lights you could tell I was nervous

But the conversation never stopped

Not giving space for any empty thoughts

Two farmers on an empty plot

Understood each other like we body swapped

You listened and that meant a lot

Coffee in the morning right before your flight

Sitting on the beach the sun was shining bright

And It's only been a week but I just feel like this is right

And now my bed is where you lay your head and go to sleep at night

Listen to music staring up at the ceiling

Talking bout our grief and subconsciously gaining healing

Unattainable feelings

Over the course of those days I wept

I fell in love with you

If my blood is red

And the world's gonna end

I can spend around one more day

With you instead

Can't be alone

It's so cold in my bed

Oh babe, I'd rather be

With you instead

It's been some time and our now differences been creeping up

Ignorance is bliss so we staying for the sake of love

But we both know that our clock is ticking time is up

We sacrificing us just to keep ways we feeling

You want a life partner

You wanna have kids that follow faith just like their mother

While I'm figuring out how to get myself through another

Day without keeping my body wrapped up under the covers

But you see me through a lens like no else before

And you're the fire in my heart that burns me to my core

I could pen a million songs for you and still write more

Your presence everything I need and all that I adore

You're the light of my life, my new best friend

I love your words, colors, and curves, your emotions

Though I love you walking beside me, we at years end

And while we celebrate the beginnings, we contemplate ends

If my blood is red

And the world's gonna end

I can spend around one more day

With you instead

Can't be alone

It's so cold in my bed

Oh babe, I'd rather be

With you instead

It's been a month and I still check my phone

Hoping that I get a call or text saying we're wrong

Any excuse to hear from you, your voice is what I long

It's hard to keep going forward when you can't move on

I'm graduating baby you'd be so proud of me

And now I'm lookin for myself so I got therapy

Wish you were here, you could be a witness

To my growth, my prosperity, my life's mission

I wanna tell you a few things before I leave

Before I slowly turn to dust in your mind and blow amongst the trees

Please remember all the times I was there for you

Even when it got hard, you know I cared for you

Look at me in a positive light

Despite the outcomes of our treacherous and on going plight

When I see your name, I'm just tempted to type

I delete the message cause I know decisions was right

Thank you for showing me what it's liked to be loved

Thanks for telling me that I am enough

Thanks for pushing me to be the person I can become

Thanks for holding me down when I was giving it up

When you look at the moon, I hope you're thinking of me

When the sun's setting too, I hope you think of the beach

And when you're falling asleep, I hope my name on your breath

And when you think of our time, I hope you think of the best

If my blood is red

And the world's gonna end

I can spend around one more day

With you instead

Can't be alone

It's so cold in my bed

Oh babe, I'd rather be

With you instead