Pape On My Plate Lyrics

Every time I open my feelings I feel raw

Hand on my celly I know i ain't even get a call

I make people jaded i'm doing them like will

Front row center and my back against the wall

Standing by myself but walking away tall

Humble in the way I'm talking with no gall

Stress over due like trying to pay bills

But I can't be stopped I'm out here trynna go ball

I'm like hold up can you hear me out for a minute

I know when I'm wrong. but it's hard admit it

Maybe I'm just stubborn and I'm trynna forget it

Turning new leafs as an act of contrition

Hold up spare me a couple of second

I know I ain't perfect and I know I regret it

I fuck up a lot and I'm learning my lessons

That's all I can do not perfect but present

I don't wanna live a life of disappointment

I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate

You see what I want you to see

Ripley's you think it's try not to believe

I don't wanna keep letting my people down

I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate

Figure out who I wanna be

No limits far as I can see

Look apology aside

A side of me can see that entomology is just a means to get some honesty

But honestly I feel the obligation calling audibly

And probably if i was given choices

Consequently ain't no promising

But promises were meant to broken I heard the policy

And feels like I'm just following orders I do them hostilely

Rather follow people blindly than living with no direction

A little of a projection correction this is deflection

From issue that I'm not God I'm disconnected when hurt

And forgiveness is just a blur you'll hate me when at my worst

And take this with grains of salt I was cut out of quarries

I'm made to be who I am but who I am is what worries

These urges I'm trynna purge while splurging in to some greed

The guilt is too much to bear while bringing to my knees

I'm calling out to be saved while in the land of the thieves

But my heart was stolen long ago obviously

I'm like hold up can you hear me out for a minute

I know when I'm wrong. but it's hard admit it

Maybe I'm just stubborn and I'm trynna forget it

Turning new leafs as an act of contrition

Hold up spare me a couple of second

I know I ain't perfect and I know I regret it

I fuck up a lot and I'm learning my lessons

That's all I can do not perfect but present

I don't wanna live a life of disappointment

I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate

You see what I want you to see

Ripley's you think it's try not to believe

I don't wanna keep letting my people down

I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate

Figure out who I wanna be

No limits far as I can see

Keep on killing myself

Back burner for my health

Blood sweat tear leave trail nah

Keep on killing myself

Back burner for my health

Blood sweat tear leave trail

I'm sorry for the stress of putting people through to see the truth

That in my life i feel emptiness to lose and need to prove

That I can over compensate when prices being raised

And then receipts are being shown and most of all the debt is paid

Because the feeling of remorse is something I don't like to feel

My momma told me growing up that she admired I had will

And if I put my mind up to it any task was getting done

Now I'm thinking to myself look how far I have come

And look how far that I've grown and regressed in some areas

Anxiety and dark thinking led to my hysteria

I hate saying sorry cause it feels like I ain't do enough

But sorry that I come off heartless acting like I'm choosing up

Sorry that I don't stay true to myself

Sorry that even when I win that I fail

Sorry my sincerity got lost in the mail

I'm hoping in the future I'm a better man as well