Phobias Lyrics

I am a flower stuck in a pot

I don't want water, no I want to rot

I want to feel pain and agony

Jump off a bridge and smile happily

These urges they will never leave

As long as I'm left alive to grieve

I want to be dug into the ground

Where I can't make a single sound

I am scared to be afraid

Scared of promises we've made

Because what if they end up breaking

Just like I'll end suffocating

This is not a suicide note

More so a mourning letter

Because I know that without me

Your life would be so much better

There is a lump of emotions

Clogging up my brain

When I want to feel happy

All I ever feel is pain

I am lost and so terrified

Why can't someone clarify

My purpose in this broken world

Full of broken boys and broken girls

This world is polluted by lies that are told

In a fashion of truth and their meanings don't hold

In a world where we're born with the purpose of dying

I don't understand the point in relying

On other people who have their own problems

Especially when there's no way for you to solve them

There's smiles and laughs but there will always be tears

Which is why the thought of living causes me so much fear

I am scared to be afraid

Scared of promises we've made

Because what if they end up breaking

Just like I'll end suffocating

This is not a suicide note

More so a mourning letter

Because I know that without me

Your life would be so much better