Speak of the Lotus Lyrics

Ay, don't remind me, I know

I tried to find it, my touch (Ohh, no)

These words are silent, my thoughts (Mmm)

I resort to violence, distance, and woven lies

Tried to focus and I lost her

I try to focus and I rewind

Mm, I'm really loathing this poor state of mind

I speak of the lotus, I'll be purified

See me, oh do you see me

Oh, I was moving too fast and I fall

I don't want to prove you wrong

Oh, I made my mistakes up, I count all my days

I conceal like new makeup, I accepted my fate

Look at myself in the mirror like I never seen my face

I know it's high downtown I might need a break I know

Should I get high downtown or is it getting late?

It's me I'm the wrong crowd, If you follow you'll pay

I know I put these walls up and I push you away

Just look what I'm causing

Usually is what it seems (Is what it seems)

Is it isolation I need? (isolation I need)

I'm collecting these tears for luck

Can't fall asleep if I can't wake up (Can't wake up)

Am I alive if I can't wake up?

Am I doomed to die if I can't wake up?

Find my spirit when it is lost

Deep down we knew the truth all along

Ay, don't remind me, I know

I tried to find it, my touch

These words are silent, my thoughts

I resort to violence, distance, and woven lies

Tried to focus and I lost her

I try to focus and I rewind

Mm, I'm really loathing this poor state of mind

I speak of the lotus, I'll be purified