I'm Not Okay (COTF Version) ft. childish Lyrics

I'm losing myself someone save me

Pop another one lord take me

I'm fucking up again just erase me

My body on the floor with a tracing

I think that I'm about to go crazy

You building me up just to break me

I'm drinking 'til everything hazy

Smoking 'til I'm floating like macy's

Never right

I guess the blame is mine

Nothing's working but I'm clocking overtime

Silly little scenes running through my mind

Now i'm over dramatic if I ever cry

Yeah alright alright

How can I be feeling so dead when I'm alive

Why do I forgive when they always tell lies

How could I dream, I'm overthinking all night

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm losing sleep now you got me weak now it's hard to speak now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm on my knees now it's hard to breathe now

I'm not okay

With all this shade in the summertime

I stay awake through the moonlight

Missed texts but I don't reply

But baby I don't wanna die

I don't want to feel this shit I feel anymore

Looking at peace when I'm really at war

They asking if I'm good don't wanna say no

Don't wanna be a burden, I'm good alone

Why do I feel guilty when I'm putting me first

Smile so no one can tell when I'm at my worst

I try to move forward but get stuck in reverse

But pockets always full this anything but a curse

I want you to stay but I'll push you away

People always telling me that this is a phase

If I say no what the fuck are they gonna say

It's only me now i'm all I need now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm losing sleep now you got me weak now it's hard to speak now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm on my knees now it's hard to breathe now

I'm not okay

They say I'm doing great

They say I'm doing fine

They acting like nothing happening but I'm just wasting time

I don't know if I wanna go home

I don't wanna be burden on those that want more

But it's my time my time to waste

I just don't

Know if I'm winning this race

But I'm just taking slow

The burn gets so old

Gotta blank face staring

I'm just looking at the wall

I'm a nervous breakdown

Emotional wreck

When I follow the sound

It leads to my head

Looking out for help

Cause I'm yearning for you

Wish I'd help myself

But you'd still fuck with me too

And I get tired and tired and tired again

Until I sit down and break down, the tears hit my leg

And I'm just waiting for the signs

I'm just waiting for my mind

To tell me something please

I just need to know but I'm fine

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm losing sleep now you got me weak now it's hard to speak now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm on my knees now it's hard to breathe now

I'm not okay