I'm Not Okay Lyrics

I'm losing myself someone save me

Pop another one lord take me

I'm fucking up again just erase me

My body on the floor with a tracing

I think that I'm about to go crazy

You building me up just to break me

I'm drinking 'til everything hazy

Smoking 'til I'm floating like macy's

Never right

I guess the blame is mine

Nothing's working but I'm clocking overtime

Silly little scenes running through my mind

Now i'm over dramatic if I ever cry

Yeah alright alright

How can I be feeling so dead when I'm alive

Why do I forgive when they always tell lies

How could I dream, I'm overthinking all night

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm losing sleep now you got me weak now it's hard to speak now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm on my knees now it's hard to breathe now

I'm not okay

With all this shade in the summertime

I stay awake through the moonlight

Missed texts but I don't reply

But baby I don't wanna die

I don't want to feel this shit I feel anymore

Looking at peace when I'm really at war

They asking if I'm good don't wanna say no

Don't wanna be a burden, I'm good alone

Why do I feel guilty when I'm putting me first

Smile so no one can tell when I'm at my worst

I try to move forward but get stuck in reverse

But pockets always full this anything but a curse

I want you to stay but I'll push you away

People always telling me that this is a phase

If I say no what the fuck are they gonna say

It's only me now i'm all I need now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm losing sleep now you got me weak now it's hard to speak now

I say I'm okay but I'm not okay

I'm on my knees now it's hard to breathe now

I'm not okay