INMATE Lyrics

Wishing I could forget you cuz

We have history that can't be saved

Can't tell if you make me feel more regret or hate

Locked up with the memory of you

I'm just an inmate in a cage

Struggling to break free of these chains

I hate this. I don't like you

I don't wanna be your friend

I despise you. You made my life hell

But I did too, I guess

Everything we had was flushed away in an instance

But who would wanna keep it

With how I was, I wouldn't either

No wonder it feels surreal

Sleep is malevolent

I close my eyes, I know I'm going back to hell again

I feel restraints, they lock

No food for me or thoughts

I guess I'll sit and starve

It doesn't matter what I want

I know I should try escaping but I'm still aching so I better not

All this over a bitch who told lies about me and left me lost

It's sad that at the end of the day

I don't know who was more wrong

She brought storm clouds

So I left her in the corner of my mind by darker thoughts

I hate what I'm thinking

I'm losing my mind

I'm done testing limits

I've lost too much time

I feel it again

The water pouring in

The pressure builds up

The higher it gets

I gave you a gift

You used it against me

You made every single person around you resent me

You cried when you received

You told me that you loved it

Thought it was meaningful, what you said

That shit meant nothing

Wishing I could forget you cuz

We have history that can't be saved

Can't tell if you make me feel more regret or hate

Locked up with the memory of you

I'm just an inmate in a cage

Struggling to break free of these chains

I am left with scars from the ninth grade

From this really dumb, stupid decision I made

Covered up with a tat, but it still remains

Forever reminded of you in such a bad way

I could lie and say I'm happy that we fell out but I'm not and I'm embarrassed and I wish that I could fix the way I acted

My time with you had lasted

Too long as it is, I've had it

Not to mention, you should do a fucking fact check

This bitch probably gonna try to ruin me if I ever make it

Would I know how to react then

If I could have the last word

Here's all I've got left

I'm sorry, and fuck you