reflection Lyrics

Every morning I thank god for watching over me

Every night I wish I had somebody holding me

I lie awake and contemplate about the older me

I wonder if he's gonna be the man he's supposed to be

This life ain't what I ordered this is what they sold to me

I'd give it back but I done threw out all of my old receipts

A lot of homies told me they would never fold on me

They did me favors just so they can hang it over me

Turning to the colder me

You can't get a hold of me

Where y'all all was at when I was hurt and had no soul in me

Gave my life to Christ and now he fixing all the holes in me

Got to shoutout to the nigga that's always recording me

It's been like a year feel like Dastudio been molding me

Praying for the day I hop on stage and they all notice me

That'd be something right

I lose track of the days nowadays

I be like yo last night was crazy nowadays

Man I'm lying I be acting fugazzi nowadays

I'm just mad cause ain't no one here to save me nowadays

I wake up all alone got nobody to talk to

You can't relate and if you do then I feel awful

You tell the truth they hate on you and then they off you

Just look at Jesus look at Jah look at Martin

This world is scary close my eyes and I see monsters

Some days I used to pray I end up in a coffin

Sometimes I hate my life I just feel so exhausted

I wear a sign around my neck and it's says caution

Cause I break everything I touch I'm so impulsive

She don't believe in god but she be wearing crosses

This sacrilege and blasphemy it make me nauseous

You got some nerve to say to legalize abortions

I threw a rock in the water and watched it sink

I know a lot of people mad they be wishing that rock was me

And not a lot of people can see the vision or rock with me

I think my generation stupid they live in monotony

And I be tryna tell them something but they don't acknowledge me

So I just leave them to their ways of indilligent mockery

And everybody think it's fun to indulge in debauchery

Until you end up with some herpes

I stick with monogamy

Yea

I'm losing everything I love and that is not okay

I wish my momma prayed

I wish somebody stayed

But they out somewhere getting lit like it's a holiday

And I don't hold a grudge I let it go like bombs away

I don't got no enemies

Peace and love the remedy

I been hurt since 17

Told my pain to let me be

I let go of Emily

Now I feel so heavenly

I'm just letting go of everything that was making me me

The hardest part of change is definitely the commitment

Waking up everyday like naw I can't do this no more I gotta get right

I gotta be better

But you niggas don't listen to anything I say anyway so it's whatever lowkii