if i suicide by 21 give me my flowers Lyrics

If I suicide by twenty one give me my flowers

'Cause I have a lot of drugs In my bag

In need of a nurse since birth

So this verse just gets worst

When the world spins in rotation and rotation

My old girl probably waiting on me

While I'm breaking and I'm shaking over overdose', overdose

Death Is always craving for my soul, my soul

Now, the only person I talk to the most

Is the person on my mirror that I roast

And wish he would just stay as a ghost

But he won't

So one of us has to go

When a door closes another one opens

But your problems don't just heal

But maybe it's a mindset

And when I die Is the only time my poetry gets read

Before I chose to be dead on my birthday

It just sounds like decay I never call only fall

My girl says she loves but I just think she is lying to herself

Bitch I'm self aware there is no flare when we stare

I just see two broken people coping within wishing wells

And you can never lie to someone like me

'Cause I know how to psychoanalyze

So you're a bad Influence on me

So we'll never grow to see whatever love Is

At some point I must set you free

I may have just self sabotage already

There is a lot of artist I wish I could talk to again

I miss peep

I miss x

But not my ex

I remember when I related to peeps verse

When I was only fifteen in between nowhere

But in the mud like a diamond that people hope to find

And that's when I found him saying and I quote

Losin' your patience, and, girl, I don't blame you

The Earth's in rotation, you're waiting for me

Look at my face when I fuck on your waist

'Cause we only have one conversation a week

That's why your friends always hatin' on me

Fuck 'em though, I did this all to myself

Matter of fact, I ain't ever asked no one for help

And that's why I don't pick up my phone when it rings

That's real, damn

Shit I'm the man now

Nobody can get in the way when I'm the top now

Hell yea

Let's keep it on a hundred I'm just talking to a shadow that always moves

Hold on to heavy truths

So If I'm fully honest

You wouldn't like what I say in my tunes

'Cause I'm the definition of real

Whatever I write and say Is a twitter day to cancel me

For all of yall to be mad, a lot of yall are just emotional

Immaturity out of girls I rather have a convo with a real woman

If we kept it simple yall hate what I say

And don't like what I experienced

But yall can just bitch and complain

'Cause I don't got time but to write my music

And make this money for my family

Priority numero uno

Don't get it twisted

I'm a young mind but I know a lot of shit

Before you even try to fucking throw me in the trash

And put me in a list with other rappers that don't know how to rap

That don't know anything about emotion

That only fucking get paid by the industry

That only get the record label just to get to the top

But it's just fake numbers

Fake streams, fake commotions

Talk about the pills and only promoted

I'm only expressing how I felt

But I wouldn't promoted

I want people to grow

I want people to change

Damn it

I'm a boy growing Into a man

Now give me my flowers