Thoughts From: January 10th 2023 Lyrics

Im writing this

January 10th 2023

I don't know when this will come out cause

Wasn't suppose to drop until the 27th but

Shit fuck it I don't really care

I just got a lot of bad stuff going on right now

I just wanna vent and that's all this is

I just lost my job again

I don't feel I got a friend

I've been Thinking that

This bullshit pretty soon has got ta end

Thought that since September

Things were looking to be better

Got my job and met this girl

Was the light to my dark world

Then my job ain't gave me hours

You can see me turning sour

Girl was pushing me away

Cause my skies were turning gray

I just want a hug

But I guess that is too much

Y'all will hear a little bit of that story next month

Busy seasons coming

Then I got the flu up chunking

Then bronchitis left my lungs hit

Then I got some kidney stones

Busy season at work

Missed it yea that hurt

In the mail here come my bills

Insurance ain't cover it still

It's like one thing after the other

Im not gonna be able to explain everything here

And everytime I think I'm finally getting over it

It's getting better I just

Get knocked back two steps

I keep telling myself

I gotta keep moving cause

I know I'm gonna get out of this

One day

I hope

Nothing to look forward to

I've become a colder dude

Taking shots not bulletproof

I can't seem to focus, move

Losing my purpose

Man I feel like I am worthless

As I'm sitting here just hurting

Thinking I should close the curtains

I don't got nothing else

Went to the gym and it started to help

Till the bills came handing L's

Throw me in a padded cell

Hear about promotions

and some raises

As I'm going

fucking ape shit

Punch myself right in my face bitch

I hate this

I don't even know what I'm gonna call this

At the moment I feel miserable maybe

New song Improvements

Comes out the 27th

Happy boom bap track

I wrote it in a better mood so

Im tired of feeling like a failure

I just wanted to let anybody listening know

And get what's been going on off my chest

A little bit of it

Cause I am depressed

Thank you