Sober Thoughts Freestyle Lyrics

Like, I had clients who were so depressed

They literally couldn't get out of bed

So what's their first step? It's like

Can you sit up once today?

"No"

Can you prop yourself up on your elbows once today?

Music therapy sessions, I've found my way of expression

Depression's settled in, listen at your discretion

Been tryna murder my ego but been in need of a weapon

Push the pen to the paper in hopes to leave an impression

A message that'll please me

I try to stay an open book

But don't want you to read me

'Cause if I open up a passage where I let you see me

You'll learn I'm spineless with how I overthink everything

Wish I could slice this chapter out and start again

Carve a new narrative and erase my regrets

But that's a double edged blade, if I choose to follow through with it

I'll cut away the pain that once pushed me to the music biz

I'd never battle through the fight for my life

Or find the light that graced me and lead me straight to the mic

I always tell my loved ones "trauma heals, just give it time"

Let's pray that one day I'll learn to take my own advice

That's wake up call

Friends alarmed, I've been asleep too much

"I'll call you tomorrow"

Tomorrow never comes when your head is stuck in yesterday

And as it fades away, another day that I don't wanna stay awake

Life's backfired, I'm exhausted

Redirected so much energy, I'm hurt regardless

A man who's pushed for so much love that now he's feeling heartless

Nothing but a space that's replaced where his heart lived

It's the sober thoughts that hit the hardest

A painting so vivid, I think it's time you knew the artist

Behind the canvas, he's a lost soul, that's all he is

Pressuring himself against his art and now he's fallen in

The paint's still wet

I reference colours when say I made this all from regrets

Although my primary focus has been on saving the fam

To see it start to break apart has made me start to question who I am

I thought I had it figured out, guess I got more to learn

Helped direct so many others, forgot to take my turn

Reached a fork in the road that's lead to life or death

This mindset is a place I swore to never find again

Someone attacks my manhood and calls it tongue and cheek

What's more negativity when you've fallen this deep?

Self appointed GOAT's, heard the track

I pray that one day

We can have a chat because this back and forth is C Grade

At best, I'll always wish you success

It's not me being a bitch, but it's an honest attempt

To address I still support, I know those lines were in jest

They just weighed me down, but now I've pushed to speak from my chest

All I seek in life is purity

I'm man enough to admit that I have lacked maturity

These last few months have hooked me and lured me

To lose my perception and on reflection I see two of me

Felt as lost as a needle in a bed of sand

Waves of loneliness surrounded me and swept me off of land

But from the waves came a beautiful shell

That gave me passion in my life again and brought me some help

Now the picture that I'm painting's more vibrant

Still carry dark tones, but won't stay in silence

Yeah, the Shell I had has slipped from my hands

But whilst the moment has passed, I now strive to be a better man

You scale back the dragon

Until you find one that's conquerable that moves you forward

There's a Rubric for life

Scale back the dragons, until you find one conquerable

Then it will give you a little bit of gold