tear me apart. Lyrics

I'm always thinking to myself about these permanent scars

Steady playing with my heart like a shitty guitar

I start to think about the past an how it tears me apart

I get so high above the clouds I'm tryna turn to a star

All this weight up on my shoulder keep on pulling me down

I keep my head above the water cause I'm not tryna drown

All these people in my way they keep on turning me down

I got nobody by my side nobody ever around

I keep on rolling, rolling, rolling till my eyes looking low

They tryna use me for they good like they using there phones

My mind 100 on the dash then I start losing control

I take a puff and go away and let my feelings explode

Oh, oh been through this shit before

You and I are really not the same you gotta go

Oh, oh I was on the road

Mamma called my phone said they knocking on the door (damn)

Don't try to tell me what it's like to be real

Loyalty is all I need it's such a big deal

Yeah, I gotta a lot on my plate

I use this shit to ease my mind so I can move out of state, y'a dig?

I'm always thinking to myself about these permanent scars

Steady playing with my heart like a shitty guitar

I start to think about the past an how it tears me apart

I get so high above the clouds I'm tryna turn to a star

All this weight up on my shoulder keep on pulling me down

I keep my head above the water cause I'm not tryna drown

All these people in my way they keep on turning me down

I got nobody by my side nobody ever around

Cause I've been in my bag

Try to run up on me meet this 30 in the mag

Four deep pockets full we just count a lot of cash

Put all this pain in side of me my demons make me crash

Yeah, I try to leave it in the past

But even till this day I still can not even relax

Counting all these faces tryna build me up some stacks

But money don't make happiness my heart still got some cracks

I turned nothing to something

You already know how I'm coming

All these people be bluffing they said they love me that's nothing

Got my heart steady bumping, look at what I'm becoming

All these people stay slumping, but this my city I'm running

I'm always thinking to myself about these permanent scars

Steady playing with my heart like a shitty guitar

I start to think about the past an how it tears me apart

I get so high above the clouds I'm tryna turn to a star

All this weight up on my shoulder keep on pulling me down

I keep my head above the water cause I'm not tryna drown

All these people in my way they keep on turning me down

I got nobody by my side nobody ever around