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I miss my nan and my cat

I think I deserve a win

So I'll purposely lose this game

With my brain

Might as well throw it in the trash

It doesn't any good

Only bad from the past and

I don't want to feel anymore

I don't want to be like this

Shit

Do you think she'll let me in

With open arms and a hug

Said "you tried your best son"

She's all I need right

A comfort in a crowd

I've never felt

She knew me who I was at my core

And I don't want to wait for things to get better

Cause I don't think they ever will

I think this is my time

I'll set up the line

This is probably goodbye

I'm far past my expiration date

Don't want to see another day

I'll sleep soundly for forever

Don't worry about me getting better

Goodnight

And goodbye