season Lyrics

I'm remembering the time

You said you loved me by

My car in the parking lot

Of your apartment

The same day

And it drove me insane

Cause how can you say that

After everything

Even if you meant it

I know its not in that way

And we don't have to feel that way and

I know it'll never be that way

But I still want you close

And I still want to know

Why you keep me around

And in your thoughts

Cause you're all over mine

Every day at every time

It's exhausting trying to communicate

Cause it seems like I always say the worst things

And I can't get it right

I can't seem to change

I keep shutting down and shutting up

Filling my lungs with smoke and coughing it up

But

You're so warm and still seem safe

How does that make sense today

I hate you then I love you more

I want to talk behind closed doors

Again

And what has all of this meant

To you

I'm sure its just a thought

Passing by like I am too

I'm feeling like I'll only last a season

And what the fuck is that

Cause you mean so much

God damn I can't stop

I need to stop

I need to stop

But I don't want to let you go