An unwanted work of Art Lyrics

I'm writing this with so much pain in my heart tears in my eyes

Forgive me ma this songs a guilt trip in disguise

You've been asking how am I doing to be honest not fine

If you were on my facetime youd know I was lying

I'm so tired and it's not even late evenings

But I've been trying to survive fuck all the fake feelings and faith teachings

And everybody tell you they love you but with changed meanings

But who am I to say these things

So I ain't killing my dreams, I'm just livin it

The media can shut the fuck up coz I ain't believing shit

That you tell me Or tryna sell me,

Somebody sold their soul but I ain't tryna sell it

Sounds compelling enough when your life is a mess

The studio's a church coz I'm tryna confess

Poppin pills just to bring my mind to a rest

Bring my mind to a stillness where my mind seems too blessed

But the time seems too less uh

Listen I'll be flowing like a tank of feelings left open

And why am I expected to be less vocal coz

I'm less spoken of by people who should get their neck broken

Damn what a cold world we live in

They don't give a fuck about you or what you believe in

The smile on my face don't imply I be winning

Hide all the pain oh yeah I'd be willing

I'd be willing to give it my best shot

I'll be dealing my feelings that are less sought

I'll be healing even when I'm headed for the dead spot

I need peace on my mind as I see what the ends got

I know you feelin this here this here is dead right

And I be askin to be alive just like a dead might

Don't want my life to end up on a picture in a website

My life is a pen gotta keep writing til the pen writes

And I got a life full of sin when I'm just being honest

Got my nose candy ready while I just drink modest

Loving the faded hot summer nights mid august

Took too many L's to be counting, but I'm still on it

Still on it like I've always been counting my blessings

Dont let me know when it is around me

I'll be spitting my true feelings don't care how I'm sounding

And I'll be dealing my feelings on a daily basis

And when I spit this so real I know the lames will hate this

Making faces while I make mistakes

Hate to say this but my feelings are naked bitch

Damn