Utica Lyrics

I told my father it wasn't a phase

Capricorn meaning i'm stuck in my ways

For 21 years my life been a maze

Been trynna get out but I can't find a way

God how i miss all my drugging out days

Blackout then wake up do it over again

No love in a club just one night stands

I rise in the morning he's gone okay

Where do we go when we die I wonder

If heaven is real do I wanna go

Experience sonder while sitting on beaches

I watch all these people as they come and go

Why am i hero when i need the saving cuz suicide crosses my mind everyday

I am no alcoholic would you judge if I told you that I drink everyday ya

I drink everyday

I drink everyday

I drink everyday

Ya I drink everyday

Save me

Utica

Utica

Utica

I Grew back my wings and I learned how to fly again

Nobody came to my aid whatever

Been through it all my tears run dry there isn't a storm that I cannot weather

How you expect me to love you I don't love myself

I told you this you don't remember

We had made love on that beach climax you had reached

No woman could give you I know

But that was a dream and I dream bout you often

I'm hoping New York give you all that you need

You taught me to love you taught me to grief but to top it off

You taught me to breathe

You promised you'd listen I see you still do

Do you think of me like I think of you

Cuz when the smoke clears and the world is done ending

And I am transcending I hope I see you

I hope I hope that I can see you

I hope I hope that I can see you (I hope to see you)

My cup runneth over with rum and wine

My legs are numb but I will be fine

Told you I don't f*** with coke but I lied

Your birthday is when I did my last line

Do you recall when you didn't reply

It hurt me reverse it I would of replied

No matter how rich and famous I am I would give it all to be by your side

Can we lovers and friends or not

If so i promise to give all i got

If not i'll continue on writing these songs

I'm thinking I'm right but you say I'm wrong

Death will come and it won't be long

I'll be a memory but you'll play my songs

Until that time comes my faith is strong I'm hoping one day I'll see you again

Uh I told my father it wasn't a phase

Capricorn meaning I'm stuck in my ways

For 21 years my life been a maze

Been trynna get out but I can't find a way

God how I miss all my drugging out days

Blackout then wake up do it over again

No love in a club just one night stands

I rise in the morning he's gone okay

Where do we go when we die I wonder

If heaven is real do I wanna go

Experience sonder while sitting on beaches

I watch all these people as they come and go

As they come and go