Start of the Pandemic Lyrics

I can't, look at myself

I been high for too long

I been high for too long

I been high since the start of the pandemic

Couldn't even think straight man, I was so pathetic

All the songs I made started feeling so synthetic

Couldn't find myself, I was lost with no aesthetics

There's a fine line between being a genius and insanity

Had to cross the line to find out I'm my biggest enemy

Had to look to myself cuz there was no other remedy

Smoking and drinking don't mix, was always bad at chemistry

Rain or shine

Yeah this my time

Wake up in the morning and I'm still feelin' the high

If I die tomorrow, at least I went and tried

Seeing numbers drop, it's been fuckin up my vibe

Not like I been losing, I'm only improving

Gatekeepers they got me locked in, I don't got to prove it

Listen to the music, I feel them all refusing

How you like me now? It's your fuckin ears I'm abusing

Shoutout to the pain

Shoutout to the stress

Shoutout to the world that left me clinically depressed

Truth is I been lonely cause my families a mess

At least I'm breaking cycles, I been doin' my damn best

I'm faded, it keeps me sedated

I've got some hurt in me, I want to take it and break it,

and then I'll be the greatest, that's ever lived to paint it

I been high since the start of the pandemic

Couldn't even think straight man, I was so pathetic

All the songs I made started feelin' so synthetic

Couldn't find myself, I was lost with no aesthetics

There's a fine line between being a genius and insanity

Had to cross the line to find out I'm my biggest enemy

Had to look to myself cuz there was no other remedy

Smoking and drinking don't mix, was always bad at chemistry

She said I'm a charm

Well just know that these words could switch on you

I'm talking nice, but I'm better at being rude

Not seeing fruits for my labor done set a mood

And that's my fault for chasing dreams, I had no clue

I'm floating like a leaf in the air

Stuck in my ways, I'm living a nightmare

Stress been pulling out all of my hairs

And I didn't wanna go this far, but I'm there

Took my life away when I woke up

How many times have I done changed up?

I'm working harder than your daddy ever did

And that's a truth a lot of people never get

"You should post more"

"We need some more LuvA, you should promote more"

"Or maybe you could give time, you should devote more"

Or maybe I should show up at your fuckin' front door

I been high since the start of the pandemic

Couldn't even think straight man, I was so pathetic

All the songs I made started feelin' so synthetic

Couldn't find myself, I was lost with no aesthetics

There's a fine line between being a genius and insanity

Had to cross the line to find out I'm my biggest enemy

Had to look to myself cuz there was no other remedy

Smoking and drinking don't mix, was always bad at chemistry