Trust Issues Lyrics

Hard to trust somebody when you've been left in the dust

Hard to give my feelings when I'm feeling like I'm crushed

Her heart was made of metal and one day it's going to rust

She left me turning sideways now I struggle to adjust

Always calling it a home but I don't really know

Home was just a place that neither one of us would go

I say I stayed away because I'd rather be alone

Anything but deal with all the problems so they grow

It's something that I always do and barely even notice

Why the fuck is it so easy to give up and lose my focus

I was feeling hopeless, and I still was told to hope less

Kept it all inside me, thought nobody else could know this

And my head was always hanging, I was dying inside

And we never got to sleep because of fighting at night

All I ever saw was white as if you're shining a light

It was the poorest definition of 'the light of my life'

So why would I try? I mean like I rather would die

The only time that I was me when I was writing 'til five

Deciding divide is the only road to righting our lives

Because the other way for me was to resign to the fright

Girl I guess I have a problem now with trusting

'Cause I gave it all before you, now I'm lost and left with nothing

I just want to be there for you, but my life has been so rough

And I just don't know if I'm ready to invest again in loving

So I'm puffing, while I'm suffering through layers of the pain

Maybe I'm in need of you to stay here through the rain

I said it once before you just to say it all in vain

I'm scared to give my heart because our fate could be the same

I'm just saying, I don't want to fall for you and then it change

Step into my life and I don't think that you will stay

I'm taking a prescription just for me to feel okay

I'm a milligram away from going clinically insane, I'm afraid

'Cause the ones who once enlightened all my pain

Pushed me to my lowest when the lights would go away

Ended up to be the ones to tighten up the chains

I got through it and I know it isn't right but I'm okay

But I don't wanna go again

So I've been hiding from the scars on my heart

But how am I to ever hide it when it's part of my start

I know that I can never fight it and I'm finding it hard

So I just sit alone in silence here inside of the dark