i can't stop thinking Lyrics

I saw my life going hollow before it came

But the hardest fight for me was to swallow all of the pain

Depart the life that I wanted 'cause I'm afraid

But the darkest nights will always be followed by light of day

I've got some issues that roam inside of my brain

They always get you when you are low and ashamed

And now I sift through the thoughts as if it could change but

Every single thing I've been through is something I can't explain without a

A gram of damaging cannabis and some alcohol

The same contaminants ambushing me to self devolve

My fam' is not understanding this; how it felt to fall

And dammit all these antidepressants don't even help at all

It seems like all I can do is just watch my health dissolve

I'm lonely thinking of you and I've never felt so small

I'm steady blurring my view as if it will help it all

But I denied the lines that they drew cause I taught myself to draw

Sometimes I like to sit and waste away and take in the view

I'm making it through, It's taking a few

The bills are stacking so it's either pay for what's due, or pay for my food

And I've been hungry since the day I got enlaced with the view

That I would make it, I'm mistaken, now I face it, I'm through

I'm caught up chasing a mistake up in this race I pursue

I always say that I can take it but the way the I grew

Has got me thinking it's true