I Don't Wanna Die / EastSide Symphony Lyrics

I cross my heart and hope to

I lost my spark then pray I won't

Then saw the dark I know i'll

Brought it to light

I know I

I know I

I know I

Go go go go

I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die

I'mma be free from this shit when I

Long time coming been dreaming of this when I

Me and the lord got a meeting and shit when I

Ain't tweaking

I know I

I know I

I know I

Go go go go

I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

Nigga I don't wanna die

Promise to keep my name high when I

Promise to keep the same vibe when I

Promise my name up in lights when I

Forever

I know I

I know I

I know I

I know I gave ya'll all of me, who I used to be and who I oughta be

Ain't shit you could offer me when these demons won't get up off of me

And they corner me when they swarming me so horribly but it's all I see

When my depression hits and it performs for me

And i'll fake the smile cause it's the norm for me

This bad bitch won't stop calling me, my family like what's wrong with me

I barely ate and I barely slept, I'm feeling broken I'm still upset

I asked god why he ain't get me yet, so I mix some pills and my pillow wet

Shadows on my walls like a silhouette

Stopped feeling right when my feelings left

But still I say

The feeling of hustler's when touching the paper

The story connected ain't shit you could make up

This ain't a birthday but we got the cake up

Could hate on the game but don't hate on the player ughh

If she got body I slay her

Equal exchange a favor for favor

Got some more muscles a nigga got weight up

And I got the now and they catching on later ughh

Shepherd ave look what you made me

More about green less about people lately

I still got dreams, of having mercedes

More than I ever thought having a baby ughh

Ironic my exes they crave me, but going back to them nigga you crazy

I'm moving forward I'm watching me pay me

I wouldn't trade me for another don't ever mistake me

I single-handedly doubled my work

Then watched my status change tripled my worth

I want the medals for coming in first, with blessing to break generational curse

Member the crib had the roaches and rats

Member my bro said the walls smell like crack

Not where you started it's bout where you at

Testing your strength to go grind and adapt

I gotta find my own way out this trap

Center stage get em prepared for the act

I give em truth and these niggas all cap

Compare to me only mirror to match

I give her dick and she getting attached

Legs in the air or get hit from the back

Audience, the way we get it to clap

Squeezing me with her new kegels relaxed

Haaaa okayyy wassupppp shut uppppp

They getting money and I want someeee

Niggas taking risks where I come frommm

Pretty young thang give me yum yummm

On her knees hair in a bun bunnnn

Tongue got her shaking like a stun gunnn

Doing these moves can't be undoneee

I ain't the one that these people be used to

I never liked you I'm all bout my future

Don't want it later, I'll get to it sooner my life in these raps

You could skip all the rumors

I'm from the east where this hell look like heaven

In my age group bunch of steppers and felons

Bunch of loose women and niggas with weapons

And don't know the truth of where all of them heading

Live for the now I can't judge what we are

Past teenage years in my minds we went far

Coping with traumas, we born in the dramas

We making some dollars, and drawing some commas

And thought of a product, admits all the gossip

And should've been dead we defy all the logic

It gotta be church or the prayers from mommas

Or our stomach growing be used as reminders

Made it my business to make my life privileged

Don't give a fuck about niggas or bitches

Told myself to change the way it was written

My story gon see me evading the sentence

My skin color always gon make em remember

But identify em with the face of a winner

The stereotypes ain't gon break what I'm feeling

I like pretty bitches and flavor on chicken

Fuck your consensus I'm not a statistic

And no politician came this way to visit

I'm not in your picture I'm made in the image with rational thoughts

When I'm weighing decisions

Glass half full and my paper consistent

Don't need a genie to grant all these wishes

I'm shaking the town up and shaking the district

The cost is your mind come and pay me attention

Got the soul ties with the east and the gutter

That's my foundation not weak in my structure

No time for distractions ain't keeping your number

God gave me strength so that we never suffer

Can't be contained I'mma live how I wanna

Getting lil older my bones feeling younger

It's hot outside and all these bullets and weather

This hell feel so special and I got the one up

So whattup

Nigga