late nights near bizzaro lane Lyrics

I think twenty-eighteen was when it all started

Beginning of my downfall becoming broken hearted

I would say cold but that would be another lie

And there's no reason too unless I'm tryna save my pride

And ego is a damned thing destroys relationships

And you would rather lie to who you love than

Deal with a guilt trip, what does that say about you?

I don't know

Yeah you do

It means that you're a coward and you'd rather try to fly the coop

I don't think either of us wanted to admit

The signs were there from the beginning that

I would turn into a bitch

And I don't cuss much these days but that was well deserved

I wanna see the old me in a hearse

Forgive my past self for his misgivings nah

I can't until you do

You're the one I hurt and put into a period of blue

Take away the light and leave you begging to the moon

While the shadows become mine and we just live in gloom

Another song about my ex, oh come on Godinho

Get your head out from the mud

You know this life is a casino

You know the house always wins

You know that you were born to sin

And you know she's not eating don't ask her why she's thin

If you really cared you would've never did her wrong

She never would've your best friend that

You be sharing hits with of the bong

Never would've hurt him in the process of trying to get over you

But, you know that you started his pain, don't try to act brand new

Love is destructive I think you know the drill

Your routine back then was every day to take a different pill

Trying to feel the thrill until you fall ill

Don't try to blame the drugs for your trauma

You were born with it, root of all evil, let the demons visit

Bad habits bore from a bad brain

Disconnected to this Earth unless you feel a lot of pain

Love never kept you grounded why should happiness

Maybe you're just bitter cause she hated all your nastiness

And she had a reason, violent acts were normal come and go

Just like a season, pointing fingers isn't helpful so

I never spoke of treason, but this one time we were arguing

Late at night like usual

Parked at Bizzaro Lane, you were calling me delusional

Nothing new except this time you had called a lifeline

You just wanted them to listen to the venom that I spew

But I wasn't having it, took your apple watch hung up

Right back to arguing, ten minutes later I get a call

From my moms, asking me yo where you at

And she didn't say it calm come to find out

Cops had pulled up to my home

Woke my parents up in the middle of the night

Just to say we heard your son is beating on his wife

Where's he at so we can talk to him

But no one knew a thing they went to her house too

Still couldn't find us I hadn't laid a finger on her

Why should I be punished

There's more to that story but that's what I'll say for now

Open up about my evils how I got this crown

I'm the King of Grief

Twenty-nineteen was even worse, I would tell you about it

But I can't remember anything that happened

I just know I kept messing up, kept telling lies

Was still an awful person contemplating suicide

I wrote a lot of notes and I mentioned your name

My savior and my killer who grew tired of the game

Just give me another chance I promise that I'll change

Another chance another chance washed away in rain

My garden started truly wilting and I saw the damage

Nothing would be able to stop your urges to vanish so I

Tried the best I could, borderline schizophrenic

Manifested all my pain, you weren't perfect either but

I know that I can take the blame, all roads lead back

To that first mistake, to set me on the path I'm on now

I think I see the daybreak and out from the light

I can see the Seraphim coming, maybe its the revelation

I can hear the drumming

If I can't forgive myself I know that God will

And he'll take me in his arms and finally I'll feel fulfilled

Finally I'll, finally I'll feel fulfilled

Heaven doesn't laugh only smiles and stares

I truly wish you the best so I keep you in my prayers