To Be Honest Lyrics

When I went crazy no one loved me but my momma to be honest with ya

Was seeing demons chasing ghosts sleeping seldom to be honest with ya

When I went crazy no one loved me but my father to be honest with ya

Even if we're walking blind, it was no man left behind to be honest with ya

When I went crazy no one loved me but my momma to be honest with ya

With ya

Was seeing demons chasing ghosts sleeping seldom to be honest with ya

With ya

When I went crazy no one loved me but my father to be honest with ya

With ya

Even if we're walking blind, it was no man left behind to be honest with ya

With ya

Yeah

I tried to tell my story many ways

Was taught to posture strong and not reveal the pain

Was living foul but I couldn't change

Now even through the summer I can smell the rain

Sometimes you gotta find the strength within

Can't even depend on friends I couldn't pretend

But some realer than most. Some diving off the boat, and some keep it afloat

Those the ones I'm pulling in close

And I was dealing with some issues that I didn't even know, or understand

Don't leave me now, now take my hand

No way I win this battle alone, I need a plan

To make it back to my body, such an insidious experience I'm trapped in the lobby

Know I'm confusing you probably

But that's the best way to describe what I was feeling inside me

When I went crazy no one loved me but my momma to be honest with ya

Was seeing demons chasing ghosts sleeping seldom to be honest with ya

When I went crazy no one loved me but my father to be honest with ya

With ya

Even if we're walking blind, it was no man left behind to be honest with ya

With ya

Yeah

I remember like it was yesterday

Even through the madness I could hear you pray

In a language that would permeate

And I know till this day, it was your words that kept my spirit safe

Pacing door to door on hospital floors

Doctors signing papers to keep me for more

Face full of tears, can't cover my sores

It felt I was dying my faith was destroyed

Momma do you recognize me still

Tattoos on my face my psychosis made me ill

Manic losing weight, lost my hunger skipping meals

Even quit my job, cause in my mind I had a mil

Lost my crib, I was to sick too work

Lost my homies, cause I was tripping worse

Lost my music, thought my gifts were gone

Lost my mind, I paced the streets alone

This for everyone that held me down

I ain't forget just cause I'm better now

All who helped me put those days behind me

I know it's real cause you never remind me

This for those that have to walk in rain

That every single morning have to conquer pain

Strength isn't bearing the weight by yourself

Strength is admitting that you need the help