818 interlude Lyrics

All the people I've loved

Loved the bottle more

Last was him my senior year

And the ones that came before

Hiding under my covers

Hoping he don't come in

Cause I'll have to listen to things he doesn't mean

But they sink in

Yeah they sink in

Like teeth into an apple but they aren't crisp or clean

Sometimes things aren't as good as they seem

They're dirty and aggressive

I am obsessive why can't i just tell him to leave

Woah

Woah, woah, yeah

Moments I never thought I'd have to live through

My best friend on the floor i'm so fuckin' scared to

Check on her pulse the police said i had to

Alcohol swimming through the air, I smell you

I smell you

I'm crying, I'm shaking

I'm calling, no answer

That drive to her house I swear was slow as cancer

Killing me it usually takes ten minutes

How long's it been? Fuck, I really am in this

I've gotten used to flying alone

Travel so much, don't know what is my home

My family are passengers on these planes

Closer than my own blood, it's insane

And this year promised to be good to me

So far, it's been hard

I tell myself that it's worth it

Will it be worth it?

I'm scared that it won't be worth it

I'm scared that I won't be worth it