I Never Get as Far as I Run Lyrics

Can I wait for this pain to just fade into some form of strength

That one day I will think even if I never asked for it

I've been intentionally moving forward but somehow I've been here before

(Again and again and again and again)

It's getting harder to ignore the same revolving door

And I somehow keep on finding myself speeding in reverse

Spinning out of control

I'm just so tired

I never learn, it's true

I never get as far as I run

War, war, war is in my blood

To a fault

From every battle I have lost

I never get as far as I run

So one more test and pill to swallow

Another lead to follow

That neither kills nor makes me stronger

Infinity gets longer

Another boulder that I roll to climb

Another mountain with no view

Drowning myself because I should have known

We earn the punishment we choose

And yet I'll try again

And yet I'll rise again

And if I die again

I'll come back to life again

I have to try again

I have to try again

I have to try again

And try to not be

Lost forever

Lost

To not be lost forever

Lost

I drank the poison like the remedy

A bitter, cordial medicine

You've been before and now you understand

That you'll be back again

I never get as far as I run

I never get as far as I run