Relapse

The tide is rising and I feel, I'm gonna lose control

I recognize an urge ensued from abusing my soul

It's been some time old friend, I thought you were gone for good

I try to get out of you reach and not to get caught in the flood

I can't control it, I just wanna relieve myself

This pressure on me's getting to much and might need help

And everytime my thoughts go wandering by themselves

I run the risk of ending up in my personal hell

I'm all alone with this. Embarrassment keeps it in

Don't wanna be known as someone who's engulfed in his self loathing